凱莉自由隨筆

我的世界從來沒有公平這種詞。
儘管本來就沒有絕對公平的存在。

小時候的環境是不可抗拒之因素，然而長大了，
決定在於自己，選擇在於自己。

自己無法掌控的範圍總是乏心無力。因為可以改變的權利不在於我。
於是我也只能自己默默吞掉消化這些不愉快。

當我有時擁有強烈的感覺，這一切不是個錯覺，是個值得期待規劃的未來時，
總是會有一些聲音蹦出來敲我一記。

這可能會是一通電話，一抹畫面，或甚至是路上的偶遇。
這些元素提醒著我不要這麼專心。

少了基本權力，分割出時間，要去擔心別人不需要擔心的範圍，還要懂得體諒。
當我可能被人在背後打小人，下毒蠱時，
我卻在求神拜佛時，依然仁慈心腸地將全部名單列入我的保佑清單裡。
這應該就是所謂爛好人的特性之一。

有時悶壞了卻無處發洩，不舒服的表現心情也只能壓到最低。
我不想要像個弱者，如同鬥敗的公雞般不斷地呻吟。
這沒有意義。

但我又能改變些什麼？選擇離開這一切的不公平？
然後又進入下一個不公平?

I don’t quite know how to say and how I feel,
Those three words are said too much and they are not enough.


Lyric

We'll do it all
Everything
On our own

We don't need
Anything
Or anyone

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel

Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads

I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see

I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?